Rest in peace, my gong gong.
:( Went there, gahz i don't know i just cried it out all.
I'm never close with him, i am sometimes scared of him.
I go to his house on cny, we don't usually talk. In fact, I feel awkward to talk to him.
But i remember vividly, that during my primary school days, he was the one who took the lrt all the way to my student care centre, and took him to school for my chinese dance.
Come to think of it, it has already been close to 7 years ago.
I saw him, i cried uncontrollably. It's as if, i never cherished him as much as i should.
The last time i visited him was cny, but after my dad became ill, my whole family didn't visit him regularly as we did before.
It was 3 months ago since i last saw him, alive.
Somemore, my gong gong passed away without knowing my dad's illness.
Everyone kept it like a top secret... telling him tales like my dad's out of Singapore.
:(
I saw my po po, she has dementia.
She was on the bed, crying.
We're not sure if she knows what's happening. But she's crying.
The maid of my gong gong and po po, Wati, not related to us at all.
Was crying too.
All these hurt me more.
I love my dad, i love my gong gong too.
Im glad my dad is still with me, fighting strong against his illness.
I pray hard that tmrw his blood count will increase. All i wish is he can proceed for his next chemo.
Rest in peace gong gong, i understand that sheng lao bing si is part and parcel of life.
It's just a matter of time.
I'll miss you. Please bless our family, no more inauspicious things to happen to us anymore.
Please bless my mum, she's the strongest. I love her.
She's suffered enough, my dad, then my gong gong.
Anyhowz, don't need to console me. I'm very fine.
Thx chunni i love you too.
Thx hu zi ao altho you never fail to put some qianbian things inside whatever you say.
Thx ah gong desmond for consoling about my ah gong.
:)