I close my legs when im standing not like my sister.
Shu nv is me \^^/
Gah i don't like today. Hate to be alone.
Left alone is a freaking mall waiting for time to past.
Left alone in the bus letting my thoughts run wild.
Left alone anticipating a song to play but to no avail.
Left alone when it's turning dusk.
Left alone, afraid to come home.
Come home, and face a tired mum and ill dad and incessant hurting words.
" 不用靠你，我自己也行的，你要记住" was what my dad said.
Idk sometimes i think i take this whole ordeal im going thru now too lightly, i don't feel a thing.
I thought i learn how to cherish, but i guess i still don't know what it meant by cherishing someone you love.
They said i rather use the computer than go take care of my hygiene since swine flu is here and my dad's at home.
"Your immune high, my immune system low. You all don't wait till i sick or what then come regret and cry."
Selfish. I am so selfish.
I seldom stay at home much, i go out all the time, for group study, for school, for tuition....
come home, i feel love. i am glad im home.
glad that my dad is home with us, glad that he is strong enough to be discharged.
But sometimes, i dread. If my parents even bothered that im not at home.
Ugh they say stuffs that hurt me. Really.
Idk, guess im not the only one going thru such a thing right now. I know many people are going thru, im the loser of people who are going thru such.
UGH i hate the swine flu.
Ironically our study group is named after it- H1N8.
im monkey flu.
Bware of me. ROARRRRRR.
Nah idk i reckon i should go mug now.
What's wrong with me, no time for emo. Crazy packed exams start next week, 1 day time.
I NEED TO ACCUMULATE MANY As in my report book. For my own. Stop letting people look down on me.
I PROMISE I WILL GO SHOPPING AT FEP ONCE EXAMS ARE OVER SOMEONE PEI ME.