HAPPY 15TH BIRTHDAY TO JULIA LIM JIA QI!!!K today was retarded 'cuz I wanted to give you a surprise visit at your house but I guess I was in the lift and you were in the other. -_-
SO WE DIDN'T MEET.
Hahahaha crazy. Have a great birthday luv :D
In case you forgot how I look CRAP.I think I have to start all over again.
Sometimes... you just suddenly feel lonely all over when I'm in class.
I don't know. Everything just feels so..... stranger to me.
Guess this is what most people call the transition period.
Think I've been really whining a lot in my blog (and I know this suck, I will change. Really. But just... I don't have motivation. It's hard you see) about my new class and heavy school work load (read: STRESS) but I shall continue until I can get used to school.
LOL.
(I won't say you intrude my privacy if you read the smaller font words, yea so read if you care)
Actually. The truth is... I don't hate the stress. It's okay, I'm giving myself stress. No one is giving me, I can handle, I can manage, there's no need to chiong like anyone else in the class 'cuz I don't think I'm that far behind. Truth is- I fear lonliness. Guess I'm those people who can't stand and do things right when I don't have a lot familiar faces around me. It's the weakest point of me. I fought tears back today in class and this totally suck. No one knows, I don't want to be an attention seeker. That's what I hate about me, I fear being alone, I fear not having someone with me. Fuck and that hurts. Sux 2 b me. Always feel like having someone have a heart to heart talk with, but just couldn't let my feelings out. Really I would appreciate to talk to someone. Blah whatever. Who cares, I suck in letting my true feelings out. Simply just smile in front of people and let others have the imagination that I've got a wonderful life. Ha I hide my feelings... sometimes pretty well I guess? Although my face sometimes really show I fucked up I am. Roar. Again, SUCKS TO BE ME.
Probably there are pros and cons being in 3/5. Sucks a lot but I learn more subjects so I have more choices when they do the L1R5 thingy during O levels.
K whatever. So it's education or my mental health, I have to choose one LOL.
K off to learn whatever it means by refraction.