Ha, I stayed up till 1+AM to finish up the chinese you jing's composition -.-
and had to stay back in school today for mooncake festival thingy. Left school only at 9.30PM.
O_O
I must say, the mooncake fest was okay la O:
basically those who went (nanjing people and talent class) were playing around the school than really joining the activities held in the hall.
We helped out first with the decos too.
Then when it was night, we went to bball court to talk/emo/lie on the flr.
LOL, it was nice to look at the night sky. Lying on the floor, quietly.
//Mornings are anticipating and surprising,
Afternoons are full of messy thoughts,
Evenings are lonely and depressing//
I was emo luh -.-
for several reasons. Again.
Idk why, many thoughts raced through my head.
i just realise how BAD a person I can be at times, but sometimes, it's really not my fault.
Trying to make everyone happy is impossible O:
yet i'm trying to achieve the impossible and drench myself up by the piling problems each day.. friendship, study stress, silly thoughts..
Well, I'm always misunderstood for being the girl with friends revolving around me like bees to honey.
NOT.
Well, that's about all.
went home with adeline. Reached home at about 10+PM.
Here are the pictures:-
We didn't have much to help already, so went to bball court and toilet to take random shots(:
It was awesome and I was high.
I love them~
Mooncake fest
Everyone had to hold onto a lighted candle and say something about Mooncake festival. LOL, the wax drop onto my hand.
The moon is not that round yet.
Bussed 51 home. Sky was dark already (:
Anyway, skipped cca today for the talent class.
the guides were having their enrolment today, and it was horseshoe formation :)
Neat XD
Anyway, the vice principal (seriously, i don't know what's her name -.-) said the school was sprayed with insecticides already.
but ironically, i think there are more flies today S:
AND COCKCROACHES TOO!
wtf please, i was eating in the canteen when i saw a baby roach near our table.
thanks weiying for shoo-ing it away.
then like 5 mins later, i saw a huge one, those brown color one, like below my table or sth.
And I instantly jumped up the bench.
i think someone from another table killed it or something, wow.
woo, i effing hate insects.
Our school is becoming more and more like a zoo -.-
Last year was millipedes, this year are flies and cockroaches, and you can see that white cat loitering around our school sometimes, and Ying Lih caught a frog during mooncake fest.
WOW. dizguzting like eff.
.
I am misunderstood.
Everyone don't understand the truth beneath the smile of mine.
People get angry with me for not spending enough time with them.
Yes, i do neglect friends at times, and i hate it.
I understand my friends need company.
But what about me?
Just tiring myself over worrying if I made anyone angry.
I'm sensitive, yes, very.
So every little action of my friends does a great impact on me.
I hate and fear rejection. That's why I don't go up to strike a conversation with friends who I think might be pissed with me.
And they think I don't care or what.
I CARE.
It's just that I don't know how to.
You might not know, but I always keep a lookout if my friends are left out or seemed sad. But it's just that I don't really know how to show it.
I'm afraid that people might just find me irritating or a hyprocritic.
Seriously,
I'm sick and tired of everything around me.
Exhausted from all the obliging.
Worn out by all the worrying.
Torn apart due to my insecurity.
I'm out of here. It's too scary and pressurizing for me.
I wonder if i can handle everything already.
Who knows? One day I might just break down.
I KEEP FEELING THERE ARE ONE MILLION PEOPLE OUT THERE PISSED WITH ME. FOR WHATEVER REASONS.
No one appreciates I guess. I'm trying hard but I just don't know how to show it.
P/s, I L(ove) Y(ou)
Tmrw would be busy:-
Teban- tuition
Woodlands- meet peeps for lunch
Bugis- Hong tang performance
(hopefully I get to shop)
Love,
jasmine